Alright. It has been so long since I last posted that I feel weird just typing this out. I thought going back to work would be a really difficult adjustment, but it really hasn’t been that hard. The only challenging aspect is really how consuming it is. Once I started work, all I could think about was making money and being the best employee I could, which I guess is good, but you know- that whole ever elusive balance thing.
Over the past month or so my sewing has had to take a back seat to my job. It has been a really amazing learning experience though. What I am starting to get is really simple and I’ve been told it a million times, but for whatever reason I just couldn’t “get it” without the experience. The more I put it, the more I get out.
I feel like I am actually worth a shit. (I know, kind of unusual for me!)
I am paying my own phone bill, paying the electric and gas, and buying groceries. I am actually saving a little money for once. On top of all that, I started getting my teeth fixed!! I found a dentist that is actually willing to work with me and do one tooth at a time and is letting me pay it off in monthly installments!. If you are in the SF Bay area and need any dental work done, I cannot recommend Susie Shin enough. She and her team have single handedly changed the way I feel about going to the dentist. Not to mention, it is so fucking amazing to not be in excruciating pain all the time.
It’s funny how even though my life has gotten busy, I haven’t forgotten about my sewing. It creeps into my mind from the corners and I almost feel guilty for not making time. Even sleep isn’t an escape, as I had a dream the other night about finishing the quilting on my string quilt.
Something else that I have been wanting to try my hand at forever is sewing clothes. I would really like to take a class on sewing undergarments and then use those skills to sew some original Bikram yoga clothes.
As for everything else? Life is good. I wish I had a ton of pictures to post, but my iPhone died last night and will not be revived. What’s cool is all I had to do was call the insurance company this morning and I will have a new one on Thursday. I almost cannot believe how easy things are. I’m not saying life is always easy. Sometimes is annoying. Sometimes I am exhausted. Sometimes it is painful. But the day to day things that just blew my mind and paralyzed me when I was drunk and drugged out? It’s cake. For the most part, really delicious cake.
Ashley,
OMG!! I am so glad to hear from you! I began to worry because it had been so long since you posted and that wasn’t like the new you, the sober you. I am so glad that you are enjoying your job and learning lots. Make time for sewing when you can, and know you are still prayed for every night. My prayers have been answered to hear that you are doing well!!
so glad that you are back!!!
Good to hear that you’re doing well, and experiencing things from this different angle. Go well.
I am so proud of you! How lucky am I to have a daughter like you!