I’m not sure if it’s that I hate surprises or that I am just disgustingly impatient, but the reality for me is that having a kid is not the equivalent of a surprise party. Or at least it wouldn’t be right now.
I’m in a place in my life that just isn’t right for pregnancy and it has taken me a while to actually realize this. I’ve wanted to have a baby with Brandon (like really wanted to) for some months now and it wasn’t until I was about two weeks past the “Holy shit I might actually be pregnant” mark when I had this thought:
What the fuck is wrong with me? I really don’t want a kid right now.
Thankfully, as it turns out, I am not pregnant. It was probably just the stress of the move combined with my working out constantly. This situation did, however, light a fire under me to be more in control of my life and my reproduction.
I got an IUD.
And btw, it is awesomely stress relieving.
In other news, my Mom has been in town visiting and it has pretty much been an incredible experience: being sober and able to actually experience spending time with my Mom! She is leaving today- we are going to get a coffee before her airport shuttle shows up, so this is kind of a short post.
I am, however, very excited about a couple things:
First of all, I ordered a bike!!! (thankyoubrandon!) If you’re interested, you can see which one here. I have always wanted a bike but have been too afraid to get one- maybe I’m not cool enough, maybe I’m not skilled enough, maybe I won’t be able to learn how to fix a flat! But I figured screw that! I’m sober and riding a bike will be a healthy means of transportation and fun. So what if I’m not cool or if I fall off.
Secondly, I am buying the backing fabric for my quilt today!!! I’ll post some pics later of my moms trip and my fabric selection.